Consequence
The bully sauntered into my room, in my dream, and hit me in the face. Again. I woke up just before the blow found its mark and remembered the crunch, the blood, the pain. But they were less - a mist, vague and passing - than the cold that came from the anticipation of it, than the sweat that came from the fear of it. I cursed the quick actual blow. I cursed more the slow, frequent memory of it. * * * Walking alone, I checked over my shoulder, I scanned the crowds; I looked around corners. Even with friends I looked, but quicker. I waited, my gut ready to knot in an instant. I found my fists often balled, grabbing my hatred and my loathing and squeezing them like a chicken's neck. My daydreams turned to much darker colors, with violence and vengeance taking principal roles. * * * After a while the bully moved away, and I fairly bubbled in my release. Till I found that my joy had a hole in its middle; a hole I could look through and see the unfinished circle, the fear sliding almost out of view, but no farther. Harry W. Yeatts Jr. |